i officially had another conversation with my stalkee (whoops! i almost just said his name.. silly me) and i don't i'm a stalker anymore. i was talking to my friend who is also one of his friends and he came up and asked me if i'd heard of tv on the radio (honesty he must have been high cuz who is even remotely indie who hasn't heard of tv on the radio especially after their newest release "dear science" i urge you guys to go and get it." and then he asked me about kaki king and i said i was going to go to her concert, but i had to watch my little sister and he was like i wanted to go too, but i had to work and then i was like were you at the fleet foxes concert? and he was like no i had to work.
AND I DIDN'T ASK HIM WHERE HE WORKED!!
god i can be such a dumbass sometimes.
psh...
anyway, tonight is the last football game against our rival high school (east, for y'all who wanted to know.. and using deductive reasoning, you might have been able to figure out i go to... that's right... west!! funny how that happens, eh?) anyway it's our last game against them ever because we're getting moved to a different division :(
and my stalkee is on drum line, so he has to be there.
muahaha
my amazingness will strike yet again!
okay so should i wear the radiohead t-shirt or something black?
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
random sadness
is it normal to just get totally sad/depressed/just want to roll up in a little ball in the corner and go to sleep totally randomly? like i've been getting that feeling a lot, and i have no idea why. right now i feel like that. i don't want to do anything, i just want to... um... blech. i don't want to do anything. i don't even really want to talk to my stalkee tomorrow (i would have talked to him today, but he was talking to his best friend every time i saw him).
anyway, maybe i have like a depression issue. should i go to the doctor? i don't want to go to the doctor! that means i have to get flu shots.
o and i'm scared i have breast cancer. is that possible in a 14 year old? maybe it just my boobs growing, but they have like a hard center with bumps on it. god i'm scared. that would be total shit if i had breast cancer at 14. i don't think that's possible, but i'm not going to look it up, just in case it is (that's right folks! i said i'm NOT going to look it up. denial rocks!)
anyway, maybe i have like a depression issue. should i go to the doctor? i don't want to go to the doctor! that means i have to get flu shots.
o and i'm scared i have breast cancer. is that possible in a 14 year old? maybe it just my boobs growing, but they have like a hard center with bumps on it. god i'm scared. that would be total shit if i had breast cancer at 14. i don't think that's possible, but i'm not going to look it up, just in case it is (that's right folks! i said i'm NOT going to look it up. denial rocks!)
Sunday, October 19, 2008
long weekends
why is it that teachers give you way more homework over long weekends? or they disguise the amount of homework they give you...
such as in english class she's like "i'm not giving you guys ANY homework over the 5-day weekend. but wait! i forgot you have to finish an entire novel in a week, and write about it so i guess i technically am, but i'll make you guys happy for a moment only to dash your hopes of hanging out with friends seconds later! muahaha!"
i hate teachers
well it's not like i hang out with friends all the time. i prefer to be antisocial in my room listening to music (sea wolf, modest mouse, interpol, dcfc, and los campesinos! specifically) and possible reading or going on facebook/myspace/writing on this blog. i guess i go to concerts if i can get friends to go with me, but they are usually having sleepovers ;) while playing truth or dare and making their best friends go knock on the neighbor's house at 11 at night asking for condoms. good fun.
anyway i don't hang out with friends or people in general over the weekends, holidays, or summer. at all. ask michael. or anyone. yet i still end up having to all my homework on the last day of the weekend. hm... that's odd.
plus this month my mom, sister, and i are moving into a new house so i'm packing, doing homework, listening to music, being antisocial (or e-social)
wow i'm quite the busy bee this weekend.
hehe
such as in english class she's like "i'm not giving you guys ANY homework over the 5-day weekend. but wait! i forgot you have to finish an entire novel in a week, and write about it so i guess i technically am, but i'll make you guys happy for a moment only to dash your hopes of hanging out with friends seconds later! muahaha!"
i hate teachers
well it's not like i hang out with friends all the time. i prefer to be antisocial in my room listening to music (sea wolf, modest mouse, interpol, dcfc, and los campesinos! specifically) and possible reading or going on facebook/myspace/writing on this blog. i guess i go to concerts if i can get friends to go with me, but they are usually having sleepovers ;) while playing truth or dare and making their best friends go knock on the neighbor's house at 11 at night asking for condoms. good fun.
anyway i don't hang out with friends or people in general over the weekends, holidays, or summer. at all. ask michael. or anyone. yet i still end up having to all my homework on the last day of the weekend. hm... that's odd.
plus this month my mom, sister, and i are moving into a new house so i'm packing, doing homework, listening to music, being antisocial (or e-social)
wow i'm quite the busy bee this weekend.
hehe
Saturday, October 18, 2008
loneliness
is loneliness normal? i've been feeling very lonely for a long time now :(
i don't know if i'm have a strong craving for a boyfriend
or i'm growing apart from friends i've had for a long time
or it's just something i need to fucking deal with and move on
hm, reflection time...
i don't know if i'm have a strong craving for a boyfriend
or i'm growing apart from friends i've had for a long time
or it's just something i need to fucking deal with and move on
hm, reflection time...
pandora vs last.fm
i love last.fm with all my heart. i can always see what i'm listening to, and my recommendations, etc. pandora i just don't understand. i have so many questions! does it track the music you listen to or just the stations? does it have a separate application so you don't always have to have a browser window open? ah! i'm so confused...
sooo pandora or last.fm?
leave comments and decide!
sooo pandora or last.fm?
leave comments and decide!
Friday, October 17, 2008
dream dress
last night my friend and i went to urban oufitters and just tried on everything in the entire store. all of it was okay, except this one dress. i am completely in love with it, but of course it $70 and there's no way in hell my mom will let me buy it. here's a pic of my baby :(
fleet foxes
yesterday was really fun. i hung out with my friend from elementary school that i hadn't seen in months, and we went to the mall and coffee and just hung around pretty much all day.
when we got the venue of the concert, there was a line all the way around the corner. it was very long. luckily they let ladies in first, so my friend and i hardly had to wait :) judging by the line, you knew the place was going to be crowded, but it was way more crowded than i expected, and everyone was like 30-something so it was fun being like the youngest one there. we looked around for my stalkee for awhile, but we didn't see him so we gave up. we sat up on this table (which just happened to have an amazing view of the stage) and got away from the crowd. there was this chick who came over and she was either like totally drunk or extremely stoned and she was like falling over and yelling and singing the wrong songs while the band was playing and shit. i was ready to punch her. after every song she would like scream-cheer at the top of her lungs, and one of the songs it went on forever, so the band couldn't even start playing again. it sucked. oh and she kept falling over on me. gr...
the band had a lot of energy and they were really into the music, and playing games with audience (guess the song from the first chord) and just seeing them on stage was really fun.
so all in all, i'd have to say the concert was pretty fun, but not as fun as i'd hoped. hey at least i'll have something to talk to my stalkee about on tuesday :P
actually i take it back. it was an amazing concert :)
when we got the venue of the concert, there was a line all the way around the corner. it was very long. luckily they let ladies in first, so my friend and i hardly had to wait :) judging by the line, you knew the place was going to be crowded, but it was way more crowded than i expected, and everyone was like 30-something so it was fun being like the youngest one there. we looked around for my stalkee for awhile, but we didn't see him so we gave up. we sat up on this table (which just happened to have an amazing view of the stage) and got away from the crowd. there was this chick who came over and she was either like totally drunk or extremely stoned and she was like falling over and yelling and singing the wrong songs while the band was playing and shit. i was ready to punch her. after every song she would like scream-cheer at the top of her lungs, and one of the songs it went on forever, so the band couldn't even start playing again. it sucked. oh and she kept falling over on me. gr...
the band had a lot of energy and they were really into the music, and playing games with audience (guess the song from the first chord) and just seeing them on stage was really fun.
so all in all, i'd have to say the concert was pretty fun, but not as fun as i'd hoped. hey at least i'll have something to talk to my stalkee about on tuesday :P
actually i take it back. it was an amazing concert :)
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
boredom
boredom is regular thing in my life.
sometimes i wish there was less of it, but i seems every time i think that more always comes.
i'm going to make a list of things i could/should do when i'm bored:
•play guitar
•write on here
•do homework that i've been putting off
•text friends and ask them what's up
•sleep
okay that's my list for now. it's kind of a shitty list about a shitty subject, but that's okay :)
sometimes i wish there was less of it, but i seems every time i think that more always comes.
i'm going to make a list of things i could/should do when i'm bored:
•play guitar
•write on here
•do homework that i've been putting off
•text friends and ask them what's up
•sleep
okay that's my list for now. it's kind of a shitty list about a shitty subject, but that's okay :)
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
first conversation
okay so there's like an above-the-ground subway where i live, and i take it every day to get home, and so does my friend ricky (who is friends with my stalkee).
i was hanging out with my friend while she was waiting for the bus, and i looked over to the school and saw stalkee and ricky walking towards the above-the-ground subway station. i was actually looking for my other friend who i go home with, alex, so i asked ricky if he knew where he was and ricky told me that he was up ahead. just then stalkee asked me if i was going to a concert (i had actually said i was going to that concert in front of him that morning ;) ) and of course i said yes and then we were talking about that band for awhile and then ricky, stalkee and i all started talking about other stuff for like 5 whole minutes...
it was amazing
i'm so happy i could cry
i get to see him tomorrow and the next day at the concert
i'm so excited
ahhhhh!!!
i was hanging out with my friend while she was waiting for the bus, and i looked over to the school and saw stalkee and ricky walking towards the above-the-ground subway station. i was actually looking for my other friend who i go home with, alex, so i asked ricky if he knew where he was and ricky told me that he was up ahead. just then stalkee asked me if i was going to a concert (i had actually said i was going to that concert in front of him that morning ;) ) and of course i said yes and then we were talking about that band for awhile and then ricky, stalkee and i all started talking about other stuff for like 5 whole minutes...
it was amazing
i'm so happy i could cry
i get to see him tomorrow and the next day at the concert
i'm so excited
ahhhhh!!!
Monday, October 13, 2008
farting and driving
okay so mr kassner, my geometry teacher, is about the most awesome person you will ever meet. and he suffers from adhd, which makes him that much cooler...
anyway so today we were talking about theorems and postulates and all of a sudden we're on the topic of drinking and driving and this is the conversation that unfurled:
K: today on my drive to school, i saw a woman farting and driving. i've only ever seen women fart and drive.
Peter: my dad farts and drives. i know lots of guys who fart and drive.
K: really? i've only ever seen women fart and drive. i bet there are more accidents caused by farting and driving then texting and driving. and they're all caused by women.
Krista: are you being sexist? only women can fart and drive and all accidents are caused by farting women?
K: i didn't say all accidents are caused by women who fart and drive, i just said that most of the accidents that are caused by farting and driving were caused by women. that's not sexist, it's fact.
Krista: how can you tell if someone is farting and driving?
K: did you just say farting and driving? is that what you thought i said? no i said FARDING and driving. i though it was a little weird how peter said his dad farded and drove.
farding: to apply makeup to the face.
if you don't think that's funny, that means you had to have been there. hahahaha
anyway so today we were talking about theorems and postulates and all of a sudden we're on the topic of drinking and driving and this is the conversation that unfurled:
K: today on my drive to school, i saw a woman farting and driving. i've only ever seen women fart and drive.
Peter: my dad farts and drives. i know lots of guys who fart and drive.
K: really? i've only ever seen women fart and drive. i bet there are more accidents caused by farting and driving then texting and driving. and they're all caused by women.
Krista: are you being sexist? only women can fart and drive and all accidents are caused by farting women?
K: i didn't say all accidents are caused by women who fart and drive, i just said that most of the accidents that are caused by farting and driving were caused by women. that's not sexist, it's fact.
Krista: how can you tell if someone is farting and driving?
K: did you just say farting and driving? is that what you thought i said? no i said FARDING and driving. i though it was a little weird how peter said his dad farded and drove.
farding: to apply makeup to the face.
if you don't think that's funny, that means you had to have been there. hahahaha
cool quote 1
one of my cult friend told me this quote he read on a poster:
"you miss 100% of the shots you don't take"
snazzy, eh?
"you miss 100% of the shots you don't take"
snazzy, eh?
Sunday, October 12, 2008
my cult
okay so i just graduated from my cult. it's this like self-help cult where they help you deal with your problems and past memories that you hold onto, yada-yada-yada.
well my mom and my dad went through it, so i decided that it might be beneficial for me to go through it, and it was in some ways. i learned what helps me deal with my issues (which is not violence) and i made some amazing friends, and i got to miss 2 fridays of school. i think the things i learned will also help me in my relationships and they might even get me to talk to the guy i like from the first entry (i should think of a cool code name for him... any ideas?) so anyway, yesterday i graduated from the cult and it's kinda nice knowing i never have to go back into the "training room" but at the same time i made some friends and i'm gonna miss them :(
ooo today i listened to okkervil river, not for the first time, but the first time like actually listening, and they're good. i like the one about being in a bad movie and the girl in port song is good too
okay well i'm done for now
well my mom and my dad went through it, so i decided that it might be beneficial for me to go through it, and it was in some ways. i learned what helps me deal with my issues (which is not violence) and i made some amazing friends, and i got to miss 2 fridays of school. i think the things i learned will also help me in my relationships and they might even get me to talk to the guy i like from the first entry (i should think of a cool code name for him... any ideas?) so anyway, yesterday i graduated from the cult and it's kinda nice knowing i never have to go back into the "training room" but at the same time i made some friends and i'm gonna miss them :(
ooo today i listened to okkervil river, not for the first time, but the first time like actually listening, and they're good. i like the one about being in a bad movie and the girl in port song is good too
okay well i'm done for now
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
my stalkee :)
okay so i like this guy, he's two years older than me and i think he's so cute. he's not quite hot, but more than cute, so i don't know what to call him, but i'll just go for cute.
i've never talked to him (except for a nod and a "hey" in the hall but i don't think that counts) but i saw him at a say hi concert and i see him all the time at school, but i'm really too scared to talk to him. oh well maybe it will happen eventually.
i kinda feel like a stalker when it comes to him (as in i know his name, i know what kind of music he likes, i know where to find pictures of him on myspace, and i know some of the classes he has) but that's okay, i mean its all good and i don't know his cell # or his address so i'm not dangerous.
i think.
i've never talked to him (except for a nod and a "hey" in the hall but i don't think that counts) but i saw him at a say hi concert and i see him all the time at school, but i'm really too scared to talk to him. oh well maybe it will happen eventually.
i kinda feel like a stalker when it comes to him (as in i know his name, i know what kind of music he likes, i know where to find pictures of him on myspace, and i know some of the classes he has) but that's okay, i mean its all good and i don't know his cell # or his address so i'm not dangerous.
i think.
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