boys

i hate boys
i wish i didn't like any of them ever again

today i was in the hall waiting for my mom and i saw my stalkee talking to some of his friends. i was just sitting there minding my own business and i heard him say to this one girl "see that girl over there in the white skirt?" and i didn't hear anything else!!! i listened as closely as i could, and i couldn't hear a thing!!! fuck!!! i told my mom and she was like "joey (my friend's boyfriend) probably told him that you liked him and so now he's just telling his friends" and it sucks because every time i see him in the halls, he gives me weird looks (not dirty looks just weird ones) and i don't know what to do. what if he's one of those guys who once he finds out you like him, he makes things all awkward? that would suck and i would hate him. and now that i think about it, i don't really want to ask him to winter's. i think i want to ask my friend. he's pretty amazing and he really likes me and we're really close and i love him to death. did i mention he's hot? well he is..

but anyway back to stalkee. i can't decide if i really like him, but i can't tell any of my friends that or they'll freak.. they'll be "o it's just a phase!" or "why? you can totally tell he likes you. go talk to him and get his number and get his penis in your pants" and they totally won't believe me.

god i hate high school.

my master plan!!

winter's (school dance) is coming up on december 6 and it's girl's choice.. if you're wondering who i'm going to ask you're a dumbass (though you can be excused from the dumbass-ness if you haven't read any previous entries)
well i'll tell you who anyway. my stalkee.
so if you don't already know, we have almost the exact taste in music, and although i haven't asked him yet, i'm going to assume he loves bishop allen.
there is a bishop allen concert coming up on november 14 (that's about 3 weeks before winters for those too lazy to do math) and i was going to ask him (tomorrow to be exact) if he was planning on going.
if he can go then i was going to go too and ask the band before they go on stage to say "on behalf of (insert my name here) we would like to ask (insert stalkee here) to winter's on december 6"
i know it's totally cheesy and it sounds like it should be a bad teen movie, but i think it's still quite spectacular.
and if he can't go then i was going to film them saying that and play it over all the school intercoms/tvs.
i'm brilliant.
i hope i don't chicken out, and either just ask him to his face or not ask him at all. i don't think my friends would let me do that.

grounded

sorry i haven't written in so long..
my mom grounded me from being on the computer (does that make any sense to you? it doesn't to me..)
anyway, it feels like a lot has happened in this past week
last night i went to a stomp with my friend and her boyfriend and her boyfriend is friend's with my stalkee (okay so get this.. they weren't friends until i started hanging out with my friend and her now-boyfriend asked her out, and now they're always hanging out and going to coffee and stuff) and i asked her boyfriend if he could convince my stalkee to come to the stomp.. and he did!! and of course he hung out with her boyfriend the whole time, but i don't mind.
it was pretty spectacular. it was for halloween, so we were all supposed to dress up, but my stalkee didn't and i was making fun of him for it.
i think on monday i'm going to ask him if he has a myspace (i already know he does, but he hasn't logged on in 3 months) and then if he says "yes but i never log on.." i'm going to ask for his number!! ah!! i'm so excited! (my friend's boyfriend already offered to give it to me, but that seems a little bit more stalker-esque then i'm willing to go..)

o and a major ego boost this week: my friend's boyfriend was telling me that a bunch of his friends think i'm hot, and i went over to where they were standing after school and they were all hitting on me and making stupid jokes, and it was quite hilarious

i think i'm going to ask my stalkee to winter's. (it's a dance for all of you not pop-cultury enough to figure that out). i bet he has to work, but i'm going to take my chances. that would be amazing if i went to winter's with him.. i'm not a big dance person, and i don't think he is either, but it would still be fun. i need to start saying that i'm going to ask him now, so when it's actually time to ask him i'll be all hyped and ready..