friendships

are always changing. especially in high school. friendships change quicker than grades do. there's this girl i've known since fifth grade. in fifth grade i couldn't stand her. i thought she was obnoxious, annoying, and immature. i didn't see her for a year and a half. then we went to the same middle school. she thought she was better than everyone else and only hung out with high school kids. there were some rumors of her being naughty, but i'm not sure if those were true. last year her mom shipped her off to live with her dad in boston (keep in mind i live in salt lake city). long move, eh?
well it's thanksgiving weekend, and i'm going to a suburb of boston to see my extended family members. i informed her that i was going and she asked if we could hang out. i said sure if my dad said it was okay, and then we started talking about other stuff. things we had never talked about before, mainly because we weren't friends. well now she's acting like she's my friend, but i'm not sure what to think because she's never been this nice to me ever. ah! i'm so confused.

boys

i hate boys
i wish i didn't like any of them ever again

today i was in the hall waiting for my mom and i saw my stalkee talking to some of his friends. i was just sitting there minding my own business and i heard him say to this one girl "see that girl over there in the white skirt?" and i didn't hear anything else!!! i listened as closely as i could, and i couldn't hear a thing!!! fuck!!! i told my mom and she was like "joey (my friend's boyfriend) probably told him that you liked him and so now he's just telling his friends" and it sucks because every time i see him in the halls, he gives me weird looks (not dirty looks just weird ones) and i don't know what to do. what if he's one of those guys who once he finds out you like him, he makes things all awkward? that would suck and i would hate him. and now that i think about it, i don't really want to ask him to winter's. i think i want to ask my friend. he's pretty amazing and he really likes me and we're really close and i love him to death. did i mention he's hot? well he is..

but anyway back to stalkee. i can't decide if i really like him, but i can't tell any of my friends that or they'll freak.. they'll be "o it's just a phase!" or "why? you can totally tell he likes you. go talk to him and get his number and get his penis in your pants" and they totally won't believe me.

god i hate high school.

my master plan!!

winter's (school dance) is coming up on december 6 and it's girl's choice.. if you're wondering who i'm going to ask you're a dumbass (though you can be excused from the dumbass-ness if you haven't read any previous entries)
well i'll tell you who anyway. my stalkee.
so if you don't already know, we have almost the exact taste in music, and although i haven't asked him yet, i'm going to assume he loves bishop allen.
there is a bishop allen concert coming up on november 14 (that's about 3 weeks before winters for those too lazy to do math) and i was going to ask him (tomorrow to be exact) if he was planning on going.
if he can go then i was going to go too and ask the band before they go on stage to say "on behalf of (insert my name here) we would like to ask (insert stalkee here) to winter's on december 6"
i know it's totally cheesy and it sounds like it should be a bad teen movie, but i think it's still quite spectacular.
and if he can't go then i was going to film them saying that and play it over all the school intercoms/tvs.
i'm brilliant.
i hope i don't chicken out, and either just ask him to his face or not ask him at all. i don't think my friends would let me do that.